here’s the idea, a plan for a better self, a blueprint before a sturdy home for my pride.
part one: freeing anonymity.
forget myself. lose that idea of myself that defines my actions as i go through life building a complete portrait of myself. disregard outside views of who i am, for if there is no i, who are all of those people looking at, what is there to which guilt and consequence can be attached?
part two: selfish charity.
rid myself of all possessions not necessary in my elemental survival. not as an act of the good man, the humanitarian, but as the act of a man lessening his load in an already difficult journey, preparing for a quick escape in the case such an escape is needed.
part three: thoughtless honesty.
no more pleasing, no candy-coated veils to throw. empower myself, strengthen the foundation of my integrity by saying all things as they truly are. be unafraid of the tears of others. in fact, consider tears as possible proof that i am an honest success.
part four: inconvenient family.
bear the burden of family. wear the label of a last name like the badge of a martyr. find a wife. collect her life and make it my own. make new lives and shape them to serve me, feed my pride, and further carry the badge.
